We are still very much in the closet about my spouse's gender identity.
I think 6 other people know about what we're doing right now. Sometimes I want to talk about it. Sometimes I'd like to ignore it. I've known my spouse was transgender for 387 days, or a little over a year. I like to think that I have grown a lot in the past 387 days. It wasn't easy. Nothing about this process is "easy". Talks about transition or feelings about becoming a woman (for the most part) no longer end with me sobbing uncontrollably. I struggled with EVERYTHING in the very beginning. I didn't know who I was. I didn't know who I had married. I didn't know what I was doing. I didn't know where I was going. I was so very lost. I should have taken the time to talk to someone in those early days. I should have found a friend or at least a secret blog like this one. I didn't. Instead, I hurt myself. I felt guilty... ashamed. I was angry. I was so, so sad.
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MeI'm a cis-gender woman who lives in the American South. I'm married to a biological man who is in the very beginning of transitioning into a woman. I am also struggling to conceive. ArchivesCategories |